Dear Danny:

god_is_watching_sign_boxDear Danny,

Our mutual friend told me this morning that you’re struggling with your sobriety.

I know reaching out via this blog may be presumptuous, maybe even a bit annoying or over-reaching, because I have never even met you in person.  But one of the things I do know about you is that you have read my posts in the past. I hope you’re reading this one.

I just want you to know that you helped save my life early on in this most recent, very difficult sobriety. You did that by telling me that my blog helped you. As an addict, I often feel like I am of no use to anyone, and hearing that you read my writings…and that they helped you with your recovery…gave me the strength to continue fighting this battle at a time when I truly felt like throwing in the towel and giving in to the dark urges to use crystal meth.

I truly believe that it was God who brought us together. Discovering, while chatting on Facebook, that you are my high school girlfriend’s nephew was both a shock and a beautiful surprise.  I remember your father very well, and I remember your Aunt  telling me about your birth.

You are an incredible young man: I was stunned by the insight you have into your disease, and I was bowled over by your profound faith. Your faith strengthened mine that day, at a moment when I needed it.  You shared your story with me, and I was so incredibly impressed by the obstacles and challenges you’ve overcome at such a young age.  I wish I had, at your age, even one iota of your faith and strength.

I know it’s hard. I’m struggling too at the moment. I just want you to know that even though I’ve never met you I care about you enormously. I am so grateful for your support when I needed it. I am so grateful for inspiring me with your faith.  You helped me.

I am praying for you, my young friend. The world…and the recovery community in particular…needs your experience, strength and hope.

I am asking God to watch over you and help you find your way back to His light.  I can’t pretend to know what you’re going through right now, or what particular demons you’re wrestling with.  I can tell you that I’ve wrestled with many, many demons myself.  You have to win, Danny, so that God can continue working through you to help others who are struggling. The way you helped me, probably without ever even knowing how much.

God has great plans for you, I’m sure of it.

I heard him speaking to me through you.

Prayers and love,

Andy

PS: listen to this song by my friend Maria. It’s helped me so much when things have been really rough.

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About andy nicastro

I'm a producer, writer, graphic designer, former overachiever, current procrastinator and occasional catastrophic fuckupper living in Los Angeles.

Posted on November 21, 2013, in addiction, recovery, spirituality and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

  1. Hannah McPherson

    Thankyou for this Andy. This made me cry then, made me cry now.

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