Better Every Day

IMG_1729Once I believed that when love came to me
It would come with rockets, bells and poetry
But with me and you it just started quietly and grew
And believe it or not
Now there’s something groovy and good
’bout whatever we got
And it’s getting better
Growing stronger, warm and wilder
Getting better everyday, better everyday

I’ve recently fallen in love. And it’s not with Patrick, my amazing partner (now legal husband, yay!) of 20 years.

I am completely head-over-heels, schmaltz-and-all in love with my sobriety.

We actually began courting back in 2002, but it just wasn’t a love match at the time. I just couldn’t see how me and sobriety could work together. Sure, sobriety seemed like it had it all together, seemed steady and dependable, but I just wasn’t ready to commit. We went on a few dates, but it just never panned out. I was too self-obsessed, too selfish, too arrogant. Now, years later, after putting myself through the wringer and humbled by  my years-long, off and on relationship with Crystal Meth, I can finally appreciate what sobriety has to offer.

This past year has been an amazing journey of self-discovery; as sobriety and I approach our one-year anniversary, I can  honestly say our relationship gets better, and stronger, with each passing day.

I am smitten.

About andy nicastro

I'm a producer, writer, graphic designer, former overachiever, current procrastinator and occasional catastrophic fuckupper living in Los Angeles.

Posted on July 3, 2013, in 12 steps, addiction, alcoholism, recovery, song, spirituality and tagged , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 5 Comments.

  1. I am so happy for you. I just started reading your blog I am only 17 days sober and your posts inspire me. 1. Because you tell it like it is, swearing and all. 2. How you express it even when it is sad you do it with humor. Hang in there and wish me luck!

    • Thank you so much. I’ll absolutely wish you tons of luck, but I’ll also pray that you use the tools of recovery to make a beautiful life for yourself. It’s right there for the taking. Just be of service, help people who look like they’re struggling or sad, and keep recovery a priority. I’ve had more fun this past year than I can remember having in my entire life, all without drugs and alcohol. I send you virtual love and support and hugs, my fellow tribe member. All my best, and thank you again for your kind words, you have no idea how much I appreciated reading them. You made my day a little brighter.

      • Thank you! And you are so right and I am learning new things every day. Some things about myself I don’t like but hey, I haven’t lived this long without making mistakes and seeing things the way I wanted to, now as the Serenity Prayer says, “…Accept the things I cannot change and the wisdom to know the difference.” Happy Day to you and thanks for the prayers.

  2. I nominate you for the prestigious Inner Peace Award and a bouquet of Super Awards, my friend, for the person you are and what you share with the world. Please click on the link below for the details.…-with-no-rules/

  3. andrea nicastro

    Andy, this is amazing as always but it made me cry, with joy. i love you cant wait to get to LA and be with you guys.

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