Sober Musical Interlude #3

“My life, it don’t count for nothing /  When I look at this world, I feel so small / My life, it’s only a season / A passing September that no one will recall”

In just a few short years, I went from working for the great Steven Spielberg and touring with The Red  Hot Chili Peppers to sleeping in public parks.  Now, as I begin rebuilding my life, I have a tendency to judge what the future might hold for me by comparing it to the accomplishments of my past.  Though I’ve mostly reconciled myself to the fact that I may never live that kind of heady life again (and perhaps that’s for the better), there are still days when I look back with intense regret about the career I singlehandedly destroyed.  There are also days when I wistfully ponder where life’s travels would have taken me if I hadn’t hijacked myself and set a course straight for the gutter.   On those days, today being one of them, I listen to this song.  Her gorgeous warble sounding like some strange breed of angel, Iris Dement brings me back to reality, and keeps me focused on the one thing that truly matters in this frequently troubling world: love.

My life, it’s half the way travelled,
And still I have not found my way out of this night.
An’ my life, it’s tangled in wishes,
And so many things that just never turned out right.

But I gave joy to my mother.
And I made my lover smile.
And I can give comfort to my friends when they’re hurting.
And I can make it seem better,
I can make it seem better,
I can make it seem better for a while.

About andy nicastro

I'm a producer, writer, graphic designer, former overachiever, current procrastinator and occasional catastrophic fuckupper living in Los Angeles.

Posted on March 19, 2013, in addiction, Crystal Meth, drugs, God, music, recovery, religion, song, spirituality, support, Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 3 Comments.

  1. Andy I am digging your blog, found it when I searched Iris Dement and the word recovery. I love Iris’s song writting and wondered if she had a 12 step story of her own. I’ve been clean and sober since 10-31-85, I was 21. Still active “doing the deal”, meetings, fellowship, sponsorship the works and I love my life. Music has been my medicine since I got sober, I would love to have you share with me your “Recovery Play List”… If your ever passing thru the Seattle area look me up. Thanks,

    • Wow!!! since 85? That’s amazing. I also wonder about Iris…”my life” is one of my favorite recovery songs….when I think back on all i threw away and find myself longing for those “things” again, I listen to that song and remember what is truly important. Have a beautiful day and thank you for your kind words, they made my day!

  2. I have loved Iris for years – she strikes at the heart of life with such simplicity….

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